Today I am grateful for love.
Love from my family who has no other choice but to love me. Love from my friends, who love me and somehow find me funny ha! And love from my fiance…
and boy does he love me. I always said that guys are naturally assholes, and girls are naturally crazy. Am I right? I used to make fun of all “those” other crazy girls until I realized being in love, and caring for someone this much, I am also crazy lol. The key is finding someone that deals with those moments of crazy and those moments of being an asshole. It doesn’t mean I am ACTUALLY crazy and that men are ACTUALLY assholes (although there are some real crazies and real assholes)…but what it means is we all have these ‘moments’.
I found someone that loves me through all these crazy moments. There is a quote, and I truly hate quotes lol…but its one that stuck with me. “If you can’t love me at my worst, you don’t deserve me at my best”. I think it’s by Marilyn Monroe. But how true is that? I have SO much to offer a partner, I am confident in that, but if my partner can’t accept my worst too, then he doesn’t deserve the best I have to offer.
My fiance’. He’s kind. He’s patient. He’s caring. He’s loyal. He’s committed. He’s all in. He’s faithful. He’s a family man. He adores me. He loves me. He deals with me. He compliments me. He takes care of me. He protects me. He safeguards me. He leads me. He makes me smile. He brings me laughter. He accepts me ‘baggage’. He finds my ‘scars’ beautiful. My flaws, he calls perfect. My insecurities, him not even knowing what they are, he compliments and sees nothing but beauty. His desire to want this is rare. His willingness to do whatever it takes to make this work is like no other.
I prayed for a man like him. Now it’s my job to love him back and accept this love. Because I deserve it.
“Love suffers long and is kind. Love does not envy. Love does not parade itself, it is not puffed up. Does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil, does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.” – I Corinthians 13:4-8
Fiance and I on Valentine’s day in Seattle in the rain. OOPS, forgot we moved to Seattle and should carry around an umbrella or jacket with a hood. Lesson learned ha!