March 30th, 2017: I flew home from Minneapolis to Seattle after closing on my biggest account of my heightened career as a Vice President of National Accounts for a private equity firm out of NYC.
March 31st, 2017: I got a text message from my boss to call him only to find out that I was getting laid off. He was in tears telling me that he has never had to let someone go for doing too good of a job. Our firm had raised too much money, that there wasn’t enough money to deploy therefore hurting shareholder’s return.
May 3rd, 2017: I sit here in a hotel in Portland, Oregon where my fiance is working and I’m tagging along on his trip while he conducts multiple meetings. I sit here unemployed.
Change. I’ve lost a job before, been fired or left on my own good will. This one felt different. I have loved every minute about my dream job. Traveled the country, met amazing people, explored amazing cities, ate amazing food and had the flexibility to create my own schedule and do what I want, when I want. Not to mention, I made good money doing what I loved.
I am grateful for the experience I was given. Especially during a time I was single. But my life is different now. I got engaged, and I’m planning a wedding and want a healthy happy relationship, one where I am not traveling where I can focus on me, my relationship and our future family. So in essence, I am somewhat relieved this happened and I feel I can walk away with my head held high.
I have decided to leave the industry. It’s time to pursue something different. The crazy thing about change is we all avoid it. THE FEAR of CHANGE is BIGGER than the FEAR of STAYING the SAME. Why?
Because we are all so scared. Even if we don’t know it. I have wanted to write a book for 5 or 6 years, well then why the hell haven’t I? In the back of my head, uh, Alisha, what credibility do you have to write a book? You life isn’t perfect, and you have failed many times so what the hell are you going to write about? Only credit worthy people write books is what was in the back of my head not even knowing it was.
Like WHAAAAT? Do you really think that every guy that was ever a written author had major credibility? Sure some, but far from all.
If everyone could get rid of that fear. Fear of failure, fear of what other people will think, I really believe people would pursue things more often. And pursue change as most of the people that “stay the same” probably aren’t as happy as they know they could be.
So today I write to push myself that change is ok. And it’s time to make a change. It’s time to just say screw it, and roll with it, what do I have to lose?
In the last year, I have had major change. I got engaged, moved across the country and lost my job and lost 3 of my best friends. 1 to death, and 2 for reasons I will share in another post….OR in my new book I’m going to write all about friendship 🙂